| So, last night and this morning have been pretty interesting. Last night, I went and hung out with my friend, Jason, and I had a lot of fun playing his 360. It made me think about how things have changed over the course of the past few years. It's been two years since my dad's stroke... officially (it happened Jan. 4th 2004). When I think back on everything, and I don't mean to reminisce, but sometimes it's hard not to, especially around a time like this. I look back on my walk with Christ, and it fills me with a sense of accomplishment, yet, with a deep sigh of preparedness. I can never be done with my walk with Christ, not even when I die, I will go to heaven and worship my savior there. So, I came to the realization last night that the closer I get to God, the closer Satan comes to me. When I want to reach out to God, I get a little whisper in my ear and I get angry, or I get upset. I really hate how much control the evil one has over me, I need more God.
Ok, back to the topic at hand. When I think back on the past two years, I notice that I've lost a lot... but I've gained even more. I seem to have lost a lot of the friends that I had when I was in high school, especially those that I hung out with the most, mostly because I don't see eye-to-eye with them anymore. I'm not a partier, I don't think that being drunk or high is fun. Does this stink? Heck yes it stinks. I have gained much more though, I gained a best friend in Christina. She is my soulmate and is perfect for me in every way. I really have no clue what I'd do without her. I've gained a better perspective of God, and that is such a blessing, especially when I am able to give things up to Him, and not have to worry about things so much.
So, in closing... some may look at my life and feel sorry for me, for the things that I've had to go through. Maybe you don't think I've gone through anything, and that's cool too. I just want everyone to know that I'm glad that my dad had his stroke, I'm glad that I've done the things I've done, I'm proud of my decisions to follow Christ and NOT this world, because if these things had not happened, I wouldn't be where I'm at, I wouldn't have Christina, I wouldn't have God, I might be laying in a gutter somewhere, either dead or dying.
"I may not own the greatest things in the world, but my worth is not measured in the things that I own, but yet in the one that owns me, Jesus." |
